Friday, August 28
10:26 PM
N'level is just 10 days from now..
To sum up everything for the week.
Mrs Kok speak with us on tuesday morning.
This was what she said,
* Start of conversation *
Mrs Kok: I will ask all the subject teachers to stop giving any homework.
Except for English, Chinese and Social Studies. I want all of you
to focus on these 3 subjects first.
Me: ( In deep thought .. ) Woo ~ Mrs Kok give out order lerhs. SO NICE of her.
Mrs Kok: I am very worried for all of your Social Studies and English.
Chinese/Malay, I am not so worried. I know all of you will
do well for that subject.
Mr Ben: ( very extra .. haha ) I am not worried about their English.
I believe they will all pass.
Mrs Kok: You are not worried ? But I AM !
Me: Teachers are smart people. Mrs Kok say can give English, Chinese and
Social Studies homework. They kept on giving. ( aiyo .. Mis-use of order xD )
I know. Giving more homework means can practice more. But hors, teacher are weird
people. Kept on asking us to do revision. But, the amount the of homework they
give cost us a lot of time. So how do we afford time to revise neh ? Unless we have
48 hours per day. xD
Mr Ben: You should work on the subject that you are weaker in.
Me: Mrs Kok say only give English, Chinese and Social Studies homework.
Then why Mrs chuah give Geography homework ? Cheat our feeling arh ! ( just joking )
Mr Ben: ........ ( speechless )
* End of conversation *
Elementary Mathematics improving .. And kept improving ... =)
Chinese and Combined Science (Phy/Chem) remains at A2 . (Can do better)
English .. Manage to clear it ! Athough the Paper 2 was killer . =D
Principles Of Accounts drop the MOST . hahas . (did not study marhs)
I drop by 30 odd marks . From a B3 to a E8 . (PRO hors ?)
Social Studies improved. Although still fail but nearer to passing .. =P
Geography Paper is still, with teacher. Just hope I was do well enough to clear
Combined Humanities (Geo/SS)
Stayed back today to complete a Mathematics Paper.
Stayed with Kelvin ..
But,
We chit-chat along the way.
We DISTURB people ! HAHA ! (Transformers) - Inside Joke =DD
I really want to get at least a A2 for Elementary Mathematics in N'level.
I want to prove to my Mathematics teacher that I can do it even
without your teachings. ( but you rarely teach. =.= )
I want at least 3 As in N'level !
I want. I dare to dream.
I think, there I am !
=)
Wednesday, August 19
11:04 PM
It's has been so long.
Since this " bitter " feeling approach.
I suffered from eye infection again.
Reason being very simple .
Blame it on Prelims .
But,
that pair of bloodshot eyes of mine.
Does not filled with only blood vessels now.
It's filled with water..
Maybe because I haven had water in my eyes for quite some times.
Or should I blame it on that stupid moodswing of mine that are behind all this.
How silly I am .
I am used to those ending.
People always said : " practice makes prefect "
Now,
I could apply that.
Those ending did their practice on me.
That's why they ended so prefectly.
With no trace ..
Don't you think so ?
It's ok .
Enduring these ending has became a part of my life.
Ever since those impact started last year,
Enduring has been a chapter of my story ...
8:52 PM
That history shall repeat itself ..
I hope not.
But,
the settings are the similar.
The same source for meeting.
The same issue. The same feeling.
This time round, the feeling is mixed.
Maybe due the fact that.
Impact shall always be impact.
Fear shall always stay.
I told a girl the same things like what I told another girl 7 months ago.
But, what I told her only last us for 29 days.
I am afraid about the current one.
I dare not cross the line.
Because I know the limits.
She is like the girl that broke off with me 7months ago.
Still holding on to a fail relationship I suppose.
I manage to help that girl to walk out. But eventually I was dump.
YES ! I was dump .. in a Cruel manner ..
I am not sure whether this current girl will walk out ?
Or even IF she walk out, what will she do ? What can she do ?
Stress ..
Has been always my friend since the day that girl dump me.
I know this girl have shown concern to me.
I should have be more willing to accept.
Once failure does not equals to forever failure. I thought so.
Sometimes, things just go haywire ..
I have to follow according to the flow ..
And finally.
I have decide to walk out.
And seek for a new life .
New self.
And a new
chapter of my story ....
Monday, August 10
7:28 PM
If people are going to ask me,
" Have you waste any part of your life ? "
I will reply,
" Who's does ? Everyone will have their own wastage of life. It's only a matter of amount."
But,
I will remember deeply that,
I have once wasted 29 days of my life.
I have lived that 29 days in vain.
Thought that period of time could exchange with
any part of your story or something else.
But, I am wrong.
I wasn't in your story at all.
If I am going to place this in the grammar rule.
I am not even your past tense.
How pathetic ?
Wow ~
* claps for myself, man ! "
I was erased totally.
Not leaving any trace at all.
How superb could that be ?
Now,
I finally understand.
*Pardon me*
Girl will only remember bastards.
Bastards that fool their life.
Bastards that toyed their feeling.
Bastards that do not keep promises.
Bastards that hurt them.
Oh. Consider yourself lucky ?
Not bad, eh ?
It's seems like I am not evenly match even against a Bastard ?
How sad can I be ....
tsktsk ~
