:Jump through my mind:

Monday, March 30

12:16 AM

Tittled : Now that she's gone .
By : JJ Lin Jun Jie

Girl you know I miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life Oh Oh~

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts Woo
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

Don't keep telling me these words Oh no
You don't know how much it hurts Woo
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was Wu~
I will go on without her Wu~

Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song Woo
Oh yeah I know I don't know
Baby I am know I'am a foul

And I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

This is our song without a soul
Now that you're gone
What's left of us in this song

Friday, March 27

10:25 PM

I feel fatigue after all those training .

I did not castigate today .

I was back to SJAB for some superintend chores .

I was impressed by some of my cadets performance .

On the other hand ,

I was discouraged by certain actions taken by certain cadets .

Overall .

I still feel that today 's training worth my precious time .

And guess what ?

One of my Sir wants to develop me into an officer or an instructor .

Oh gosh ~

I need to think about it .

Very carefully .

My friends around me complimented that my English is improving gradually .

I am more mindful or my tenses ,verbs and grammar .

And most importantly , my vocabulary increase .

I am turning in now .

* yawn *

Tomorrow will be a long day of homework -ing again .

Elementary Mathematics all the way ~~

1:00 AM

It has been a while since I talk about rejection .

Now ,

I am bringing up the issue again .

I define rejection as ,

" Rejection is the most terrible thing that you could receive however it is also the most horrible thing that you can give . "

So why do people still reject ?

Wednesday, March 25

10:59 AM

The third day of school reopen .

I discover that I am relatively weak in my Physics .

No matter how much price I have to pay , I want to pump up my grade .

I need the grades to allow me to have a taste of biology .

Lessons was fine .

Or I should name it as a Elementary Mathematics day .

I have been doing Elementary Mathematics all day long .

Firstly , I done Math in lessons for three period .

Secondly , I stayed back after school to practice Math for 4 long hours .

Thirdly , I have done Math for 3 long hours and now

I am finally blogging but it's about Math again .

Oh dear !

The life has become routine .

Sleep ,Eat ,School ,Homework ,Mathematics and blogging ^^

And guess what !?

I experience the motherly side of our dear principal , Mrs Kok .

The story goes like this ,

I was doing Mathematics at the canteen with hidayah .

Then Mrs Kok had finished her lunch .

Hence , she patrolled the whole canteen .

Hidayah just simply say "hi" to her for some odd reasons .

Here comes our conversation part .

Mrs Kok : Why are you folding up your pant ?

Me : Oh , I fold up my pant because it is too small and by folding up will make me feel comfortable .

Mrs Kok : Then why don't you buy a new one instead , after all you still have a long way to go .

Me : * Smile *

Mrs Kok : You guys can study in such a noisy environment ?

Me : Mrs Kok , we left with no other choice .

Mrs Kok : Why ?

Me : Canteen is a bright and spacious place . It suits well for studying purpose .

Mrs Kok : Oh I see .

After the conversation with her .

She scolded the Junior ( Secondary 1 or 2 ) for making such din .

After that , she walked off and the canteen was quiet .

Woah ~

She actually scolded the junior because of us .

I was touched by her actions .

Oh , before I forget .

I have learnt how to badminton today from Mr Ben .

We played badminton during P.E today .

I was tagged with fabian .

Both of us was very frustrated .

I , being frustrated because I could not played well .

Fabian , being frustrated because he have to wait for me to played well .

hahas .

But at last ,

Mr Ben brought me to one side for a one to one tutoring .

I "graduated" with some basics .

Going to grab some power naps before I doze off .

I will be doing Math till midnight today .

Wish me good luck .

It time for me to " turn in " soon .

( for a short power nap )

Reported by Mr Jeremy Ang
xD

Tuesday, March 24

1:00 AM

I have finally finished my homework for today .

Another day of homework cleared .

I have only an essay to write .

Thanks to Haziq with the help he gave .

I was drained and feeling very frustrated .

Sometimes ,

I really want to know the reasons .

This has been always the case -

Every Monday after school , I will feel the frustration .

Everyday at 5pm to 7pm .

The time slot will be the most vulnerable for me .

I will be totally drain and emotionally stress .

I WANT to find out why .

It's killing me .

That is besides the point .

I have found a way of studying Combined Humanities ( especially Social Studies )

and Principle Of Account .

But I do not know whether it work effectively for me .

I am dead beat now and imagine that stupid fitness test will held after school later on .

Another rounds of sufferings arriving soon .

I am sure I will be very exhausted after the test .

And chemistry test coming up on Thursday .

As usual , I am aiming for a definite A1 .

Or I should say full marks instead .

Physics test will be conducted next Thursday .

I am aiming for an A1 preferably .

The school term has begin .

Term 2 .

Very little time left for the preparation of N' level .

I am going to work extra hard but smart .

~ Going all the way ~

And

hope my grades in Mid Year Examinations could bring me to the world of Biology .

I believe gaining knowledge is at the benefit of selves not a proof to others .

It's all for today's posting .

Hence ,

I am turing in soon .

^^ Good night to all ^^

Reported by : Mr Jeremy Ang
^^

Sunday, March 22

10:56 PM

- The Definition of Romantic Love .

The passionate attaction between man and woman that is known as romantic love can generate the most profound ecstasy .It can also generate ,when frustrated ,unutterable suffering .Yet for all its intersity ,the nature of that attachment is little understood .To some ,who associate "romantic" with "irrational," romantic love is a temporary neurosis ,an emotional storm ,inevitably short-lived ,which leaves disillusionment and disenchantment in its wake .To others ,romantic love is an ideal that ,if never reached ,leaves one feeling as though one has somehow missed the secret of life .
Extracted from the book ,
The Psychology of Romantic Love
by Nathaniel Branden

Friday, March 20

9:19 PM

Sometimes ,

I do not understand myself .

I used to pursue power

I got it eventually .

Now ,

I want knowledge .

I fully understand how scary human greed was .

I used to believe that power was everything .

I want nothing but the best positions .

Being a Exco of Student Council and a Senior NCO in SJAB .

The Parade Commander for last year NDP and the President of last year National Day .

I got what I always wanted .

I tried to ask myself .

Am I really happy when I got those power .

Being a leader ?

It is what I always wanted ?

I worked so hard to where I am now .

What is the point ?

I lost my grades .

I lost my friends .

I lost my time .

I lost my freedom of speech .

I lost my the girl I love .

I lost myself .

I have lost everything .

Is that the price I paid for being a leader ?

I could say , Is way too much .

Many people on envy such position . such power .

Holding such power .

My greatest regret is .

I lost myself .

If I am giving a choice again .

I would rather be an ordinary student .

" Power comes with great price . "

This is what I conclude from experiences .

Thursday, March 19

2:01 AM

It's 2.01am now .

I finally won the war between myself and Principle Of Accounts .

I mange to tackle it and take it down .

One more subject's assignment has been cleared .

And I just got to know that the stupid Elementary Mathematics Intensive Practice are meant for

free practicing .

I don't have to submit it when school reopen . It meant for practice at own time own target .

I am such a fool to rush like hell =.=

So its seem like ,

I am down with only physics xD .

And I have started on physics .

Finished 2/5 of the assignment .

Going to do physics later on at 8.30am in school .

Aiming to finish physics in 2.5 hours .

I think should be around 12 noon .

I will go for lunch then come back .

Start the interview together with Mr Siva and my other EXCOs .

Hopefully ends before 3pm .

Then I will ,

READ MY PSYCHOLOGICAL BOOK !! ^^

* Sidetrack a while *

When I was with you , I could not even sat down for an hour to do homework .

When you leave me , I could sit down up to 9 hours just to do homework .

A great improvement , eh ?

I should have made this improvement early .

But ,

Is never too late to improve .

* Back to track *

Up till now .

I felt a sense of achievement .

The first time I did my homework so diligently .

The first time I take my learning so seriously .

Eh ? * Clap for me *

[ Oops . I sounded so shameless ^^ ]

But ,

I HAVEN START ON TEST REVISION .

For god sake !

I will start later at night .

It's late now .

And I should not be burning midnight oil at first place .

I am grabbing some sleep .

Turning in now .

Good Night .

My dearest homework .

And not forgeting .

My textbooks .

Wednesday, March 18

7:20 PM

I swear it is purely coincidence .

I did not planned in advance .

Neither do I stalk you .

I was shock when I see you in the library .

How on earth could that be ?

I bumped into you 3 times in a day .

God is toying my fate again .

That is besides the point .

As slaves of homework ,

I am here to report on my progress .

I have cleared English , Chinese and Social Studies so far .

Principle Of Accounts , 1/4 done .

Physics , 1/6 done .

Elementary Mathematics , spent the most time yet the worst . 1/6 done .

Homework is driving my crazy .

I borrowed 3 Psychology -based books from the library .

I have decided to build and to drill the knowledge of Psychology .

I want to start from young .

I am willing to sacrifice my time for homework later on .

To mug on these books .

I personally think it's worth my time .

Maybe ,

I am visiting the gym on Saturday .

Need to work out to burn some fats .

As throughout the holiday .

My routine has adjust to Sleep , eat , bath , blog and homework .

I am reading the book now .

12:17 AM

I, Myself

Hereby do Pronounce that ,

I am

officially a

Slave Of Homework .

I should phrase it this way .

All students are the mourner of homework .

Let's get back to topic .

I have successfully accumulated a total of 20 hours spent on homework .

But ,

Being a slow " homeworker "

I am at a disadvantage .

I only manged to clear English Completely .

I cleared Chinese Paper 2 . Paper 1 finished 1 essay . left 1 more to go .

Elementary Mathematics, the worst ever . I spent the most time in it yet I only manged to complete one-sixth of the assignment . So disappointing .

Physics workbook , POA worksheet and Social studies SBQ assignment still left undone .

I can see mosquitoes flying around those undone/untouch homework .

Oh Gosh ~

I have to improve my time management .

I bet you will question me .

" Why am I working like crazy ? "

My answer will be ,

" I don't have a choice , I have a strong urge to excel . "
I keep having migraines,

as I continued reminding myself not to be nostalgic about the past and to heed and learn from my past mistakes.

I have to take charge of my life,

and not let distractions hinder my path of success .

Life will move forward,

and I will continue to look forward as well.

I will keep that in mind.

Tuesday, March 17

12:00 AM

I am out of words now .
The fact is there and you can simply deny about it .
You can change the fact around .
You know it well .
If you do not want the fact to be there .
Why place it there at the first place .
I thought you were kind at times .
But you switch around too fast .
Maybe and maybe .
I really mistook you .
Or
Misjudge you .
I am speechless .
What was the reasons behind those denying ?
Don't you feel tired denying at times .
Feeling this way but phrasing that way .
To conclude .
I have nothing to say .
AND
I am turning in now .
Later will be a series of intensive again .

Monday, March 16

10:28 PM

己经好远了.
退也有一点累了.
我们都不知道路有多远 .
走到何时才歇一歇 .
不如就现在吧 ~
让我们都停下 ~
但是在休息后 .
我们还不知道继续走的理由 ~~
雨都停了 , 天都亮了.
我们还不懂 .
这爱情路究竟带我们到什么地方 .
是要持续仍旧珍惜 .
还是回到原地 ~
如今此刻的我的确是有一点疲倦 ~~

Sunday, March 15

3:27 PM

A brand new term is approaching .
The first week of school reopen will be Term 2 , Week 1 .
A new chapter of life is going to unfold .
And let all bygones be bygones .
And let natural take its course .
I am fully charge for term 2 .
Cannot afford to be indolent .
I must be industrious .
No more thinking but it's time to act .
No more brooding about childish matters .
It's time to handle serious matters .
Things that do not relate to studies or SJAB/Student Council .
I will put it aside .
No more stupid mood swing .
As no one in the world will give a damm .
It's time to wake up from that long hibernation .
And get things done .
Less than 5 months to my N 'level .
I had worked hard in term 1 .
In term 2 . I will and I must work harder .
Jiayous to those taking N or O level this year .
xD ^^

Saturday, March 14

8:49 PM

Holiday is a disaster .
Why do I make that statement ?
Holiday marks the start of endless piles of homework .
Holiday marks the start of intensive revisions .
Do you agree ?
After Holiday ,
There are Physics and Chemistry test waiting for me .
Oh god ~
POA and Combined Humanities (SS,Geo) are still not up standard .
I am worried .
EMath and Combined Science(Chem,Phy) , I still need intensive practices to sustain the standard .
And finally down to my 2 languages ,
English and Chinese .
English , I need to more widely and be careful of tenses .
Chinese , I need to practice more and mange my time well in exam/tests .
Apart from this . I have tons of homework left undone .
The amount of homework I have are listed :
(From the Most to the Least)

Elementary Mathematics
Principle of Accounts
Physics
Chinese
English
Social Studies
Chemistry [ No homework but test after holiday ]
Geography [ No homework but need intensive revision ]

I am going to finish all my homework before Next Saturday (21 March 2009)

I will make it a point to revise a subject daily .

I will complete Chapter 4 on Biology and move to to Chapter 5 and hope to complete it also .

I will also attend outings . ^^ [ All work no play makes Jack a dull boy ]

I will visit the library at least 3 times throughout the holiday .

I will leave a quotation beside before I end my post .

This is a quotation that can be found at the general office and create an impact on me .

" I think , therefore I am . "

Friday, March 13

9:47 PM

After viewing at my "wonderful" results for CA 1 .
I almost fainted . =.=
Factual CA 1 Results
3 Passes , 3 Failures .
English : 49 [U] , [D7]
EMath : 60 [4] , [B4]
Chinese : 68 [3] , [B3]
Combined Humanities (SS,Geo) : 37.9 [U] , [F9]
Combined Science (Chem,Phy) : 83 [1] , [A1]
POA : 45 [U] , [D7]
Overall Percentage : 57.2 % [5] , [C5]
EMB3 : NIL [ English Failed ]
L1B4 : 20
L1R5 : 26 [ Overshot by 6 Points ]
Conduct : Very Good .
Attendance : 44/44 Days [ I get the Green Apple collar pin . xD ]
Late Coming : 0 Days .
Remarks : Jeremy is a sociable and active boy who has shown interest in his work . He has been working hard this term . He must strive harder in his weaker subjects in order to succeed .
Targeted MYE Results
ALL 6 Passes .
English : 62 [4] , [B4]
EMath : 65 [3] , [B3]
Chinese : 83 [1] , [A1]
Combined Humanities (SS,Geo) : 60 [4] , [B4]
Conbined Science (Chem,Phy) : 86 [1] , [A1]
POA : 64 : [4] , [B4]
Overall Percentage : 70% [2] , [A2]
EMB3 : 12
L1B4 : 13
L1B5 : 17
Targeted Range of Improvement
English : From 49% [U , F9] to 62% [4 , B4]
Increases 13 % [ 2 Grades ]
Emath : From 60% [4 , B4] to 65% [3 , B3]
Increases 5 % [ 1 Grade ]
Chinese : From 68% [3 , B3] to 83% [1 , A1]
Increases 15% [ 2 Grades]
Combined Humanities (SS,Geo) : From 37.9% [U , F9] to 60% [4 , B4]
Increases 22.1 % [ 2 Grades ]
Combined Science (Chem,Phy) : From 83% [1 , A1] to 86% [1 , A1]
Increases 3% [ No Grade Increase ]
POA : From 45% [U , D7] to 64% [4 , B4]
Increases 19% [ 2 Grades ]
Overall Percentage : From 57.2% [5, C5] t0 70% [2 , A2]
Increases 12.8 % [ 3 Grades ]

Sunday, March 8

11:00 PM

I am .
Strain .
Drain .
Fatigue .
Tire .
Weary .
Debilitate .
Enervate .
Fag .
All this words have a similar or the same meaning.
Yes !
I am trying to express the fact that .
I am EXHAUSTED .
Very TIRED .
=.=

Thursday, March 5

9:28 PM

Since I was told that I did not respect you .

FINE .

Since you have decrease the impression of me .

FINE .

Since you do not understand where am I coming from .

FINE .

Since you do not know the truth .

FINE .

Since you think that I copied .

FINE .

Since you do not want to be friends

FINE .

Since , Since and Since .

Ever since ,

the day you want to let go .

My heart followed .

But now ,

I am going to take it back .

I am washing my hand out of your business .

I am NOT going to care anymore .

I am NOT going to reminisce anymore .

That is the end .

I am who I am .

9:12 PM

CA 1 .
I have done BADLY .
Very Badly !!
I failed 3 subject and Pass 3 subject .
I failed my most important subject - English .
My grades are as followed :
English : 49 /100 (D7)
EMath : 60 /100 (B4)
Chinese : Keep In View [ Because I still don't know the overall yet ]
Combined Humanities [Geo/SS] : 40 /100 (D7)
Combined Science [Phy/Chem] : 83 /100 (A1)
POA : 45 /100 (D7)
Overall : 277 /500 [ Excluding Chinese ]
Overall Percentage : 55.4 %
I may have pass Overall but I failed English ~ (=.=)
This kind of sucky results compared to my desire results .
This shows I have a long way to go and need to work harder .

Tuesday, March 3

11:59 PM

POA has become a part of my life ?
POA has blended into my daily routine ?
I feel depressed easily these few days .
A mental block ? Causing myself to get drain , stress and strain .
But ,
Whenever I see you in school . I feel the tenderness .
So relaxed and calm .
I have been working on POA recently .
Eh peeps . I work so hard for POA not because I love POA .
The reasons behind was for the sake of biology .
If I do not have the intention of taking biology . I wouldn't give a damm to POA .
And Believe this !
I spent my whole afternoon after school untill 6pm in the canteen to revise on POA .
[ Actually doing POA homework larhs ^^ ]
I almost forget I have a EMath test tmr .
Damm ~ Haven start on revision yet .
I doubt I will have the start to do it .
I will be revising tmr morning . I think so .
My chinese Compo still left undone .
Going to work on it later on after I blog .
If not Ms Toh going to skin my ass tmr .
And ,
" I don't care anymore ~ "
Because I failed english by just a damm 1 mark .
I got 49 / 100 .
Haiz~
The first CA sucks .
I fail my english by 1 mark , POA by 1.5 marks and I think Combined Humanities shall be the worst . I fail Social studies by 3 marks . And I nearly pass my Geography . Damm ~
ALL borderline failure .
So far , I only know I passed Combined Science with flying colours and Chinese .
But , chinese grade drop . I hope if overall I can get an A2 back .
Cannot afford to fail EMath tmr . Must pass .
Ok . I shall be going back to accompany my Valentine liao .
[ Do not be mistaken . That is my Chinese homework xD ]