Dear Blog ,

I was emo-ing today in school again .. I am suffering with an Ulcer .. It hurt .. Just wake up from a nap .. Recently , I am emo-ing .. I do not know why .. When I am doing certain things , I tend to get mood swing easily .. I hope it will come to a stop .. School sucks nowadays .. Exam in progress .. I met alot of couples in school recently .. When I see them in pairs .. I tend to get abit jealous .. I admit , ok ?? I give up my chance to be in pair , did I ?? So piss when I saw pair .. Last time I use to talk about relationship and imply from there .. Now , I hate talking about that and get piss off when people talk about that .. I know my mindset is abit off .. but I cannot help it .. I am lost .. People around me advice me to smile more and stay happy .. I know my face when I got angry or piss off .. It's damm scary .. I should smile more .. I told myself everyday .. Whether you choose to be happy or sad but life will still go on .. So why not go for a happy life ?? I know myself too well .. I am hot-tempered .. People outside call me the gangster councilor .. Why people call me that ?? Who do not like to be praise ?? There must be certain thing that made people call me that .. I should reflect on that , Should I ?? I am glad that people I hurt before are getting happy now .. This makes me less guilty .. Today , I went for the OCIP interview in the morning .. I was glad .. The teachers interviewing us was only Mr Chong and Mdm Timah .. We are required to think about the objective of this OCIP trip , the lifeskills that we will gain after the trip and How I can contribute to the team .. I was speechless when I go inside room .. Dammit .. I screw up the interview .. I am clear what I want to say but words just do not come out from my mouth .. During EMath lessons , I was bored .. Mr Lim was going though the End-Of-Year EMath paper 2007 .. I was tired and I fall asleep in his class .. Haiz .. Should not have done that .. I am sorry , Mr Lim .. =( ..Physics Lesson , nothing much .. But I meet Mrs Oh on friday to get a final full chiong for physics .. Jiayous wors .. XD .. POA lesson as usual , very boring but still must pay attention .. So good .. My malay friends they leave at 11am which mean they only attended 1 period of POA .. ( AHH ) So good lors .. =) English lesson , Mr Ben was on leave .. So no teacher was in class .. As expected lars , class was in a mess and chaos and very noisy .. hahas .. people was running around but when Mr Rumi walk pass , everybody go back to their sits and take out books to " study " .. Hehes .. During POA , Mr Rumi also walk come and see .. I went for a lunch break with fabian .. OMG .. My Ulcer hurt .. Bark it !!

After break was Chinese .. lols .. We play games .. la~la~la .. As usual , my team always get the champion .. AHH .. dammit .. Chinese Paper 1 get third in class .. 49 upon 70 nia ~ lose to Peirong and huiting .. ( one 55 the other one 52 ) .. After leeson .. Actually I want study at library but my Ulcer hurt .. cannot tahan .. So I went back home and rest .. haha .. Tmr holiday .. Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim Friends .. XD lols ..

I am feeling for the worst .. Alot of feeling in mind .. I could not make a decision .. Emo ?? Sad ?? Angry ?? Disappointed ?? Or wanting to crying .. I do not have a answer now .. People always say being loved or care is the most wonderful things in the world .. Is this statement true ?? I questioned myself .. Does everything have his/hers limit ?? What if overshot the limit .. What will happened ?? I really dont know what to do .. I am lost again .. I have already try myself to cheer you up .. what more ?? You make me feel hurt .. I am use it .. nevermind .. I just want you to be happy .. And that all I request .. If your scolding or insulting can exchange your happy smile .. I tell you .. Is worth it .. I really want to love you .. Care for you .. all these stuff .. How I wish one day I am not using the views of a friend .. I am having mood swing recently .. I still bother to care for you .. infront of you .. I dare not show my weak area to you .. I want you to know .. I can lend you my ears if you need to complain .. I can lend you shoulders if you want to cry .. all the things I do .. I do not wish anything back from you .. I just wanted you to be happy .. Every year , my birthday wishes .. I wish for you to be happy daily .. This year birthday wish .. I am going to wish for the same thing .. I believe it will come true one day ..

I change everything .. Blogskins .. I add in a tagbox too .. ok .. done with blogging .. back to Social Studies .. SBQ and SEQ , I am coming ... XD

Here are some way I going to do Last Minutes Studies .. No choice .. No time to waste .. Chiong arhhh ...

English - Read more for the last 3 days and note down words that I do not know the meaning .. For Paper 1 , Memorise all the Letter Writing formats .. Be careful of my tense and spelling ..

For Paper 2 , Read the passage carefully before I attempt the questions .. Compre Close , apply the subject word agreement that I have learn .. Summary , Find as many pointers as possible and when writing try to use own words as more point will be awarded ..

EMath - Practice more question in the textbooks for the last 3 days .. [ Practice makes Prefect ] If I have any questions , ask teacher .. Pay Extra more attention in class and put in Extra more effort in homeworks and Class assignments .. Memorise ALL the formula for Chapter 7 , 8 , 9 and 10 ( especially ) .. Read the questions carefully before attempting ..

Chinese - NO need to study .. Just Memorise the formats of formal letter ..

Physics - Read and Memorise the contents of the facts for the last 3 days .. Practice more on the calculation parts .. Pay Attention in class and treat every assignment as an Exam .. If have question , ask teachers ..

Chemisty - Read and Memorise the contents of the facts for the last 3 days .. Memorise ALL bonding and Reaction .. Must know the formula of the reactive table .. Practice more on the calculations .. Ask questions during lessons .. Must understand how to balence equation in the 3 days .

Geography - Read and Memorise the facts and explainations of the contents .. Understand ALL the facts in the 3 days .. Memorise and Memorise .. Treat homework as a practice daily ..

Social Studies - Read and Memorise the facts of the contents .. For SBQ and SEQ ,

understanding facts and Memorise the formats .. Practice more on both SBQ and SEQ for the last 3 days .. Pay attention in Lesson .. Do ALL homeworks given ..

POA - Memorise ALL the formats .. and Practice more .. Pay Extra super attention during classes for the last 3 days ..