Firstly ,
Before I should say anything .
Congrat for your O level chinese ..
A1 ..
Guess what ?
I cried again today .
I felt so weak .
So powerless .
Useless .
N level in coming around the corner ..
I am trying ..
But am I puting in effort ?
Am I keen to get good grade at the end ?
I need a dozen of painkillers ..
I was flooded ..
With agony ..
Anguish .
I should not be stressing over these stuffs .
I should be focus on N Level ..
When I saw you in school just now ,
I have the urge to congrat you and talk to you .
But I know I am not allowed to do it .
Even a simple " hello " .
I will still be contented ..
I would like to vent it out ..
But I can't go back to old ways .
So .
I choose to let out my tears instead .
The moment when it was let out .
It can't stop ..
Heavy tears escaping from my eyes ..
Jumping downwards ..
My eyes were swollen .
Health had been a downfall for me .
That useless dislocated arms ache again .
Both eyes was swollen due to the super lack of sleep .
Heart was cramping recently . Don't know why ?
Having cramp on legs and hands very often .
I am drained and stress .
My concern now is ,
I may afraid I talk you .
You will avoid me .
Time really flies ..
Too much deep down underground ..
I cannot see light neither can I stop it .
I choose to be blind , mute and deaf .
To cure my illness ..
