Exam done . I have sort of Overcome it . I can go up to secondary 4 . Mr Ben told me . When he was telling us about this in school today .. My heart was like "pump .... pump ...." Finally I clear it . I got what I wanted . But can I overcome more upcoming problem .. Councilors problem ?? SJAB problem ?? Working problem ?? OCIP Problem ?? Or Relationships problem ?? I really dont know . I am in a mess . Why is it that the girls I like does not like me back and the girls that I do not care , like me back . The world is changing . God is beening unfair . Why do human have feeling .. Happy ?? Sad ?? Emo ?? Angry ?? Or Jealous ?? Why is it " Stress " keep on knocking on my door ?? I am already outside her door knocking , just that she do not wish to open the door and she block me outside . One Stress I can take it , small cake .. A few stress I also can take it , no problem .. Several of stress I still can take it , no big deal . A lot of stress I am able to take it , no a great issue . But ?? A small relationships stress can take me down .. I will be tear into pieces and fall hard on the ground . I cant take a small relationship blow anymore . I have enough of it . My " stressproof " heart is worn out . Too many problem cause it to worn out . I do not want fail again . I am scared of waiting . . Sometimes , I really feel like crying in school . But ?? I cant .. I promise her to be strong and not to cry . Even if I met a big problem , I will not cry .. Crying to me was once a source of venting stress and anger .. But now , is no longer a solution .. I am really tired .. I wanted a another " Stressproof " vest .. Or best still , a key to solution .. I am still waiting ..
