I was thinking .. a Deep thinking of a question .. a simple question that stress me up .. allowing me to be sad , angry , emo , tears and even the intentions of dying .. Sometimes , I really throw myself this question - why is it always .. every girl I like , no matter what I do .. they would not see .. Eventually , again and again .. others are take them away from me .. To me , the amount of thing and actions that they do and i do is the same ... sometimes .. I even do much more than them .. but the result will be - empty handed .. I do not want any rewards .. I just want care and concern .. that's all I wanted .. Am I not deserving to be loved .. or Am I not fit to love others .. why is it I always fail .. I afraid of rejections .. I got it more and more .. Sometimes , I really don't want to take the first step because I already know the result or answer .. I will fail .. I am losing faith in girls .. Am I ?? or is that another excuses .. Me , Myself .. I am not sure .. I lost .. In a Daze now ... =(
