Dear Blog ,

I was emo-ing today in school again .. I am suffering with an Ulcer .. It hurt .. Just wake up from a nap .. Recently , I am emo-ing .. I do not know why .. When I am doing certain things , I tend to get mood swing easily .. I hope it will come to a stop .. School sucks nowadays .. Exam in progress .. I met alot of couples in school recently .. When I see them in pairs .. I tend to get abit jealous .. I admit , ok ?? I give up my chance to be in pair , did I ?? So piss when I saw pair .. Last time I use to talk about relationship and imply from there .. Now , I hate talking about that and get piss off when people talk about that .. I know my mindset is abit off .. but I cannot help it .. I am lost .. People around me advice me to smile more and stay happy .. I know my face when I got angry or piss off .. It's damm scary .. I should smile more .. I told myself everyday .. Whether you choose to be happy or sad but life will still go on .. So why not go for a happy life ?? I know myself too well .. I am hot-tempered .. People outside call me the gangster councilor .. Why people call me that ?? Who do not like to be praise ?? There must be certain thing that made people call me that .. I should reflect on that , Should I ?? I am glad that people I hurt before are getting happy now .. This makes me less guilty .. Today , I went for the OCIP interview in the morning .. I was glad .. The teachers interviewing us was only Mr Chong and Mdm Timah .. We are required to think about the objective of this OCIP trip , the lifeskills that we will gain after the trip and How I can contribute to the team .. I was speechless when I go inside room .. Dammit .. I screw up the interview .. I am clear what I want to say but words just do not come out from my mouth .. During EMath lessons , I was bored .. Mr Lim was going though the End-Of-Year EMath paper 2007 .. I was tired and I fall asleep in his class .. Haiz .. Should not have done that .. I am sorry , Mr Lim .. =( ..Physics Lesson , nothing much .. But I meet Mrs Oh on friday to get a final full chiong for physics .. Jiayous wors .. XD .. POA lesson as usual , very boring but still must pay attention .. So good .. My malay friends they leave at 11am which mean they only attended 1 period of POA .. ( AHH ) So good lors .. =) English lesson , Mr Ben was on leave .. So no teacher was in class .. As expected lars , class was in a mess and chaos and very noisy .. hahas .. people was running around but when Mr Rumi walk pass , everybody go back to their sits and take out books to " study " .. Hehes .. During POA , Mr Rumi also walk come and see .. I went for a lunch break with fabian .. OMG .. My Ulcer hurt .. Bark it !!

After break was Chinese .. lols .. We play games .. la~la~la .. As usual , my team always get the champion .. AHH .. dammit .. Chinese Paper 1 get third in class .. 49 upon 70 nia ~ lose to Peirong and huiting .. ( one 55 the other one 52 ) .. After leeson .. Actually I want study at library but my Ulcer hurt .. cannot tahan .. So I went back home and rest .. haha .. Tmr holiday .. Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim Friends .. XD lols ..